Two of my phobias aligned to screw me

Last week I saw a gigantic FLYING cockroach in the elevator and it triggered something in me and I can't get on the elevator anymore.
I already get asphyxia in small spaces, so riding an elevator was never a pleasant experience for me.
And I have a severe phobia of insects, especially roaches.
After I locked myself in my apartment for a week I went out today and tried to get on the elevator again but I couldn't do it. I even managed to get in there once, but I jumped out when the doors were closing. I was at it for like an hour and gave up and used the stairs.
And when I called my mom to tell her, she just laughed at me so I didn't continue.
I just wanted to vent out the frustration, thank you for reading. Hehe