Chat am I even real atp? This is just a lil rant bcus I'm tired of checking out of reality unwillingly. I apparently have been dissociating for the past two weeks and going through VERY IMPORTANT EVENTS/WORK like a zombie controlled by the laziest gamer ever pressing A to skip everything. I failed an exam and missed due dates for literature reviews and I know I can never email my profs like "Hey I was doing the assignment but I dissociated and then tried to finish everything 1 hr before it was due, can I still submit my work pls??" Like no bestie that's not how life works :(
God forbid I have any motivation or a sense of urgency to do anything and instead I just get the feeling like my head is filling with air, my muscles are trying to itch themselves against the endodermal layers of my skin, and my throat is growing a heavy ball of rock. RAAAAAH it's so frustrating
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I do feel like that certain times and hope to fix it soon, are you feeling anxious/nervous in some ways? It might be also because you're overwhelmed. Some people dissociate in response to severe anxiety I do hope you take a break from time to time and relax your mind
You have to practice grounding skills so that you can teach your mind 1) how to be still and that 2) it’s safe to be in your body and for your mind and body to be connected as one. I do remember you don't like to take meds.
Haha me? Take breaks? Impossible. I can't relax until Christmas and even then I have an important project to maintain progress on. I don't really have a choice but to be anxious and stressed :D
I understand, as nothing but a stranger the only thing I could say is that I hope that you get well, i'm sure the time will come where you'll be able to take breaks. Remember your well being and mental state is always more important.
Go to a doctor. They can recommend if you need psychological care or medication. Has anything traumatic happened recently? Or whenever? And you probably don't want to drive. It's dangerous like someone blackout drunk driving. Also a doctor might be able to help with the schooling you spaced out on if it is a medical issue.
I don't think it's that serious... maybe? But I get what you're saying about driving, I've definitely dissociated behind the wheel before. Fortunately, I don't need to drive and I definitely won't now. I doubt a doctor would take this seriously tho lol
If a doctor doesn't take something that has this bad g of an impact on your life seriously, they are a sucky doctor. But it up to you. I would really recommend going if it doesn't stop soon.
I mean it could be that the important events that you have to do is overwhelming and you end up not doing anything at all until last minute. But I understand how you’re feeling and I felt like that too at certain periods. I think it’s best to find the underlying cause of this and I truly hope the best for you moving on.