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It was torture, I thought I could kill myself over some few pills but they weren't the right pills to actually kill a person. I have thought about it a couple of times imagined and grief that I was dead I wanted to talk to someone, someone that would understand but that doesn't really matter when you're in a Asian household I want a therapist really I want to be okay i want to stop these thoughts I had them since i was 10 maybe because I experienced SA or i wanted to be pitied life is very hard for me even though i grew up being loved i still feel like they wouldn't understand me. I tried not to hurt myself again I hate pain. I still want to die till this day. But I'm trying not to think about it ever since my grandma died and the same week my grandpa also passed it was hard for me I've never seen death right before my eyes it was hard to see since it was the person I cherished the most, I miss them both. I'm trying my best not to think about it. But I'm still here wondering how peaceful it'll be when I die. I'm scared.
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As someone once said: life is already short, why make it even shorter? May as well go to the end without rushing.
I don't know how old you are, but if you're living alone, adopt animals that need you as much as you need them. Help each other out. There's nothing better than coming home and knowing that someone is waiting for you. I think animals always help.
It is useless to think about others. Think about yourself and think about things you have always wanted to do. Make those things possible. You have years ahead of you to make those dreams come true.
Thanks, I know how life is short and I still haven't gotten through the hardest part but I'm already suffering it's just the thought that if I'm already suffering as it is and I go through the hardest part more harder than I'm already experiencing feels shitty . I don't live alone.
I just really need someone right now, life is tough