I have terrible luck with men

so with all this predatory stuff with men and them being cancelled, i would like to add my (non-korean men) experience. which ended quite poorly.

so im a het fem for some context (?) and i dated my first boyfriend who was a year younger than me (big mistake). so basically i made him wait 3 months into our relationship till we did it because it was my first time. anyway so i was love bombed by him and i think after a few times of doing it i could tell he was like, only wanting to have sex w me. on another note i had just so happened to ignore the unfortunate red flags he had... he was racist and misogynistic. he pulled his eyes back to 'immitate' me, he would show me other girls on tiktok who went to the gym and said "why can't you look like this?" he was extremely embarassed when i threw a rock into the water because it didn't go far and kept telling me to go to the gym. he would actually tell me to go to the gym a lot. during all this i was in charge of my family business (i had JUST turned 18) and my dad moved out to go cheat on my mom and blah blah blah... i wont go into that in this since it's already long. anyway i guess i came off as stressed to my ex bcs he said to go workout because i could get rid of some stress... like ok. i broke up w him 6 months into the relationship bcs he was rly just ignoring me full on and would call me over to have sex and immediately tell me to go home after because he had to wake up early for his internship construction job. i also wanna note he sexually assaulted me one day (which i didn't realize it was considered sexual assault because yk were together and i didn't think of it as assault) so basically trigger warning: what happened was he was begging to do anal with me and i really didn't want to bcs that IS NOT MY THING??? and he insisted to the point where i was trying to physically fight him off bcs i didn't wanna do it bro like. MAD. but he ended up getting his way ( he got the finger in) bcs he literally is 6'4 and benched more than my entire body weight.

onto the next boy. this one happened recently im pretty sure he was the same age. he asked for my number and i gave it bcs i was like 'omg he didn't ask for my snapchat?!??!' so he would talk to me over text and i found it weird that he would only ask about me and id reply a little bit too honest to the point where it was like... obnoxious.. which i knew i was doing but i thought to myself "if he cant handle it then hes not it". and whenever i tried to ask about him he would avoid it by saying he wasn't interesting and only wanted to know about me. which is actually so manipulative but i hadn't spoken to a boy in years since my ex so... ig i was desperate... i admit... anyways he invited me over to his house and i knew full well what was gonna happen and i went over (my guy friend called me an idiot for going over) so we watched finding dory and we were just talking and all of a sudden he says "your eyes are so pretty" HELPPPP and then.. boom sex all of a sudden. (this hurt) uhh so after that i wanted to leave bcs i was like freaking out internally bcs like we basically had just met and my stomach hurt so bad from his goddamn wood. (i even mentioned that but bro did not care and kept going like huh...) ANYWAY. so then next day i get no text from him and text him first and oh! would you look at that?? my texts?? arent? delivering????? haha... he blocked me. and i never have seen or heard from him ever again.

anyway quick tip for all my slow girlies. dont ignore the red flags. address them to him and if he doesn't change, run. and if you feel off about a guy, play him a little bit and if you confirm that bad feeling, run.

if you read this to the end you are lovely. and thank you for reading my yipper yapper.