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idk what i am even doing with my life.
so i just completed my masters degree a few months back which is honestly the last degree i can before getting a job somewhere (and also the last which i can get through my capabilities) but unfortunately i'm so damn unlucky that i still haven't got a job yet. all my pears have a job and are happy in their lives.
i'm just spending my days doing absolutely nothing. my health is at all time low (i've always been sickly since childhood) and everyday feels like a burden.
my mental state is absolutely miserable.
my mom keeps telling me to have faith in God but tbh i've lost all hope and faith. i'm turning into a bitter person everyday and i can't even face myself in the mirror these days because i just cannot recognize myself.
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I don't have any advice unfortunately, but I feel you sooooo much. I graduated last year and I've been unemployed ever since. I had a retail job for a while, but I quit because I felt judged and embarrassed... I've just been rotting in my room, watching anime and reading, anything to keep my mind distracted from reality. I'm trying to land a remote job at my sister's workplace, but it's been hard because I have to learn stuff from scratch by myself and college burned me the fuck out... Depression hit hard in the past 2-3 years and I isolated myself in shame so yeah.... Life kinda sucks rn and it's hard to not go spiralling xD
Just know that there's a lot of us struggling out here and maybe you find some sort of comfort in that
+ we'll figure it out at some point hopefully, so until then we gotta hang in there!
even i had joined a place after my graduation but the pressure was so high there and my pay was wayyyy lesser than what the standard is so i hated my job until i fell sick. somewhere deep down i felt that i had struggled so hard just to get a degree, like i literally gave up watching anime and such shit just so that i would not be distracted, but in the end nothing is working out.
i too have isolated myself big time....my friends call to hand out but i fell so ashamed facing them that i just stick to myself. my mom has been trying to get me outside but these days i just prefer to stay at home.
anyways, thanks a lot buddy for your considerate comment, and don't worry this is just the darkest hour before dawn, nothing remains at one point and the wheel has to move. all the best to you, we will keep trying :)