almost died

I tried to off myself when I was in 8th grade. I stayed at a co-ed dorm during school and in my 7th grade there was senior he was in the 9th grade. I was pretty much an outcast in the hostel but for some reason he started being really nice to me, it was of course quite alarming but I let my guard down and after which he started sexually harassing me almost every single day, every he got. It eventually stopped when the older girls found out but he never admitted to doing it and everyone believed him because apparently I was young and didn't know much. In my 8th year I was sexually harassed by my dad, he's in the military so we don't really meet often and when we do we don't talk much since we're not close. But during my holidays he had come and we were chatting when suddenly he grabbed my breasts I started crying and he said it was just a joke. I told my mom about it after several months, she of course believed me but I also clearly remember her saying "Are you sure that happened?" Lol. So all these traumatic events built inside me and suddenly one day when my hostel warden scolded me for a trivial matter which wasn't even my fault and threatened to call my parents, I lost it. I started panicking, blacked out and when I opened my eyes again boom my left wrist was bleeding like crazy lmao