Random rant

Went insane a few weeks ago and thought about death and how we technically don't have a soul and just have an entilegijcr and consciousness where like insicts after we die there's nothing at all nothing to think like you won't know how much time passed it could've felt like a minute an hour a second more but when will time pass by?? Can I find another place to plant mu conciseness in?? Can I survive?? How can I stop rotting if I stop rotting I could live till 4000 or 7000 til I grow tired of life and think about the voidless time and how it'll all feel like a second no matter the how much time passed and peacefully embrace the reaper itself, but even if I don't awake for a decade century 10000 years or more and it'll all feel like a second atleast I want to wake up to something new? Atleast where all my loved ones are a new world with there souls also there, where we are also family, together happy and rightouse more better happier I remember one time I was a kid I thought of something then another then everything started to click and I had an insane amount of knowledge gain. I refused to eat and whould stare at the wall or lay in bed all day like i was tranced or fazed but I don't remember all the things I thought about but one day I started yapping and I remember them telling me to only believe in god but I started yapping more and they said i was smart for my young age then I got mad and refused to eat or do anything again for a whole 2 weeks in a half then I slept for almost two whole days and forgot about everything