i feel so listless. like i've never and will never amount to anything. and idk it doesn't feel like it's just in a self-deprecating sense. i don't have any dreams or aspirations. i don't really like being around anyone but i force it when needed. i have simple hobbies that i think i pretend to like more than i actually do. i fear that i have no love for no person, no thing, and not myself. like i don't have a personality. i go to uni and plan to go to med school, but it is not for myself. when i was younger i would tell my mom that i had no dreams and she would get so angry at me. she doesn't believe that people can have no dreams. is that so abnormal? i just wish to have a humble life by myself, but even then i feel i will always be empty. growing up i've always had sxcidal thoughts, but now that i'm older it feels like i was so stupid. there's no point in dying. but is living like this even living? is there any point to anything i do? to wake up, study, eat, work, indulge in simple pleasures?
It will be okay. Life is more than feeling this way, though it feels like it will consume you. Do not say you will never amount to anything, the future is so unpredictable. You have amounted to something, you put in the work to be able to attend university. That is something that takes strength. It is okay and quite frankly normal to not have dream...... 1 reply
Dw, i use to feel like this. When everyone is pressuring you to have a dream it often makes you not dream about anything at all. I use tohate waking up, waking up to go to school because what was even the point? The only reason why i drew out in public in my school was for attention and got upset when people were better than me.
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You are a clay that is molded by those who surround you.
I am also experiencing what you're going through, and honestly, I think this is what life is. If they can't fit you in a box, they modify and cut you up in order to fit. You don't wish to but, they still do because they want you to fit.
There are times that I would doubt myself whether li...... reply
