Just some bad thoughts
My mom started screaming at me, I have never seen that look in her eyes. I was in middle school and I broke down sobbing. That didn't stop, in fact I think it made her more mad. After that, I locked myself in the bathroom and some bad thoughts started to go through my mind. Then I remember imagining my cut wrists. Thankfully there was nothing sharp in the bathroom. My dad knocked on the door and started to comfort me. I still remember that day and I'm almost out of high school. Sometimes when I'm super stressed out and my parents yelled at me I would scratch the inside of my forearms to relieve it. It left marks but not to the point of blood. I had some really depressing thoughts like "even if I die nobody would notice or care enough" or "would anyone cry if something happened to me". I am WAY better now. (=・ω・=)
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How did you get better plz help
I don’t know what you’ve been through so I can’t say this will completely help you but I’ll share what I was doing/thinking.
- Emotions, let them out. Or else they will just explode all at once. Cry, yell, laugh. Shit happens to you. It’s okay to let it all out in a setting you are comfortable with. Allow yourself to be what you are. (I either ranted to my friends or wrote what I was feeling down as a way to relieve my anger/sadness. I listened to music I knew would leave me in a good mood or I drew).
- Stress was one of the biggest factors for me. I used exercise to release tension and I started to eat a little more balanced. (Which helped me a lot since I have low self esteem because of my body. I still have fat on my body but I learned to accept it. Thanks to my sister’s influence.)
- Moving on/Not caring about what others think. I still struggle with this but in my case, forcing myself to do this made me a stronger person. I think pushing yourself (in a healthy manner) is good for everybody sometimes. If you don’t like the way things are about yourself, then do something about it. As long as you are safe and don’t hurt anybody, it is ok.
Hope this helped somebody. If not, well I hope you find that someone or something that will help you get through things. Live for yourself and look forward to the future no matter how hard it is right now. There will be days when you think “I’m glad I’m still here.” Ahaha ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~