guys qhat do i do

alright so basically this friend I've been friends with for about like three years or so, let's just call them 'one'. so me and one are like the 'best duo' or 'popular duo' at my school. me and one usually hang out every weekend, and always have a sleepover whenever we get the chance, although there is just one problem. one has pretty severe anger issues and my dumbass didn't know that until i eventually caught on by another friend that knew one better because they told me. of course, one (mostly) gets mad at me everyday and that has made a HUGEEE impact on my mental health and shit ^_^ ! we would usually call everyday and just not talk at all while doing random shit, but sometimes she wants to play roblox and stuff, and she pressures me to pick a game (maybe I'm just being sensitive well whatever '-') and i always have to go on certain social media apps just to find the right game but one always just chooses that one game she made me pay robux for, i think it's called like bloxburg or something. anyways, we would obviously have fun in that game, but she would sometimes get mad at me for not doing what she wants and then just end the call because she's mad. i would always text her right after she hangs up the call, texting her paragraph after paragraph about how sorry i am and how i wish i could fix my mistake, but she would always say that she's gonna 'kys' because of me, eventually making me feel bad and actually almost crying because i obviously didn't want her to unalive herself. to be honest, she was still very funny and stuff, though i knew she went to her other friends to talk shit about me when shes mad at me, which i didn't give any shits about :3 but then one day i was being sarcastic and stuff (my selfish shitty ass actually didn't really care about anybodys feelings which i regret in my past self) and said these exact words, 'haha we are even now' i was being sarcastic cause she accidentally got a cut (and I'm pretty sure she like scratched me or something) but then after my sarcastic remark, i immediately asked her if she was okay and she gave me that death stare she always shows me when she's mad at me, and my dumbass mind instantly went like, 'wait what' or 'oh shit i did something wrong fuck fuck fuck' something like that, and then after a minute or two she completely ditched me and went to her other friends to talk about me, and after a few more minutes, (after she went to go talk to her other friends about me) i was creating a whole paragraph in my head to text her about how sorry i am and shit, which made me feel a lot more shitter when someone trys to strike up a conversation with me and my ass feeling bad that since I'm talking to other people one is gonna feel left out and another rise of guilt strikes through my mind and immediately almost crying during class because of it (I'm such a fucking crybaby LMAOO) well anyways, (i forgot to add the part where she blocks me right after she gets mad at me but sometimes one doesn't) i then realize she blocked me, but then i am just typing a whole ass sorry paragraph for one in notes when she eventually unblocks me. but after that day she comes up to me at my locker (we share lockers btw) and one says, 'let's not be friends anymore.' or something like that and she always gives her signature death stare and walks away like she did NOT just make me stand there in complete shock that she just did that. i was literally about to go up to here and say sorry but i knew she would just push me away with her shoulder and mutter some random shit. now that i think about it, we stopped being friends for like a month, and during that month i was absolutely depressed and my mental state was so shit that people would ask if i was okay and why me and one weren't always together and stuff. literally, i was mentally drained. i was thinking a little about committing and shit, (i even prepared a date lololol XD) just until a certain someone came into my life and made my weeks just 50% better, let's call her two. two usually come up to me because she also likes drawing, (i also like drawing) and asks me if we can be friends since we share an interest. i had to make up a whole new personality for myself and my sake for two because i wanted to keep her THAT much in my life. but then after like a month, one came up to me and said, 'i think the break is over. wanna become friends again?' hold on, hold on. i was definitely NOT expecting that and i obviously did not want her in my life anymore because i would always have a some sort of bad feeling about her and my past experiences with her. i made one HUGE mistake of going along with what she just said, and my ass said, 'sure!' IN SUCH A HAPPY TONE. i don't know what the fuck i was thinking but apparently we became friends again and me, two, and one formed a friend group. like the quiet ass i am, i would always be left out and shit, wanting one to get the fuck away from two because i didn't want two to leave me. oh yeah and also, two would sometimes see me being left out and actually try and invite me to the conversation two and one had, (btw i usually stick around with both of them all the damn time) but i would always say something and become quiet again while they are having a conversation. after awhile, school FINALLY ended and everybody got summer break and shit, and during summer break i would always ignore all of their calls and stuff because i found myself an introvert who just wants to be alone during the time where me and one were having a so called 'break'. i didn't really want to stop texting two though, so i would usually text two late at night and send her random shit at like two in the fucking morning >_< well anyways after that two asked me if one, me, and two wanted to call all together which made me feel a bit sick to the stomach but i agreed to the call. when we were in the call, two had to go soon, which would make me and one be the only ones in the call. after two left, one eventually found out that i was ignoring one's texts, (dude I'm such an asshole -o-) and confronted me about it which made me in a pretty bad situation, but i might've grown a few more brain cells and figured i should make up an excuse on how i also needed to 'go' soon because of my so called 'extra homework' (i literally finished it the day before) and i could tell one was PISSED, so i eventually left right before one was about to question me the thingy and she asked if i could call later, i said something along the lines of 'maybe' and just left the call. after that, i ignored BOTH of one and two's texts because i was afraid if i looked at one or two's texts or respond to them they would tell each other and then one would get mad at me and probably make my mental state worser then it already is. oh yeah and if you know like the preview message you see when you don't open the message yet you still see the last message they sent you on their contact thing? (sorry if I'm not making any sense here) i usually look at that preview message that two sends me so i could still atleast have some hope that she still texts me (and she still does which i am pretty surprised about since nobody has actually done that to me before *_*) well anyways, as you can see by this big ass paragraph of a text that i am currently ghosting them for my own sake. also, i tend to be alone most of the time because thats what i love the most, being alone. but i am indeed scared because of school orientation that is coming up. I'm actually so fucking scared cause i know DAMN well one is gonna come straight up to me and bombard me with questions while my parent/guardian is so confused. anyways i wanna thank you for reading this BIG ASS text/paragraph and taking your sweet ol' time to read this >0< it's 3:52 in the morning help what 0_0 well i guess that's something haha thank you so much for reading this shit <33 idk if I'm a bad person but i know damn well i am so yeah, but i also kinda wanna ask who the bad person is here, me or one or two? hehe ^-^ anyways cya imma probably head on c.ai haha bye-bye ('o')/