crying because of your pet

Have you ever cried over your pet?
im crying so hard rn because my cat has an abscess, i thought he's ok because at first there were just bald spots on his fur. but the next day it was festering and seemed to have burst because he was scratching it. i'm sad because i can't take him to the vet, i don't have the money.... now i'm just cleaning the wound with nacl and wound medicine... he's still as lively as ever, but i just feel bad seeing him scratching the wound... omfg why am i so poor?