Perfect Age to Die?

Growing up I never thought I'd make it to 18, but here I am 19 and still alive. I've struggled with suicidal ideation and stuff which explains my way of thinking back then. And I'm not fully "cured" or whatever now, but even aside from that I just can't imagine myself growing old. I was watching an anime earlier and someone in the comments started off with "I'm 40..." and I genuinely thought to myself "damn". I just can't imagine being 40 and doing the things I enjoy now like indulging in K-pop, anime, manga, etc. What would I even need to live that long for? It really stumps me idk how people can just keep going idk Maybe it's cause I don't really feel like I have a life's purpose yet. I'm just a random college student. Maybe once I get a job or something I'll think differently. And maybe it's just my poor mental health thinking this, but idk I feel like even without it I'd still think the same. I just feel like on the inside I'll never grow up as fast as I'm aging.

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basement dweller 03 07,2024

Honestly? I'd be ok with dying at a solid 80. I feel like by then I'd have most if my shit figured out lmao But it's ok if you feel like your mental and physical age aren't lining up as you grow up, it's kind of normal actually. There's many people in their mid 20s who find it weird they aren't 17 anymore. My grandmother loves playing with dolls b...... reply

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for me, now. reply

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angel 03 07,2024

When I was a kid I used to say that I didn't wanna get old cause I don't wanna be a burden or like I don't wanna get help from people, I still stand by this, 50 and I still look good? Great, but the second my hips start the fail I'm out to hell I never though I was gonna get older then 20 and here I am, a 24 y/o reply

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