I tried:

Jumping off high places
Someone was always there, even when I made sure there wasn't. I live in the suburbs so bridges were the only places available. All those bridges were for cars.

Poisoning
I had prescribed iron pills, eating unsafe things and also other strong meds. I have a weak heart(since birth, have average of 45-59 heartbeats a minute and occasional heart pause), bad kidneys (both of them kinda suck), a liver problem(thanks to hard medical drugs as a child), low blood pressure and terrible lungs (I tried smoking when I was 12, damaged lungs to ths point of getting bronchitis then asthmatic and then catching TB. So don't smoke kids)

Letting my illness take me.
Almost died three times to it but my body keeps fighting back.

Now I've told my mom about it, I'm on watch 24/7 and I can't go without contact for more than 2 hrs in places like: school, town, library, actual anytime I leave the house.