Have a Phobia
When i was a kid, i was scared of everything but it wasn't something like "it scares me", it was literally a phobia and it was a phobia of everything. There were some stronger than others like (I don't know the terms) phobia of strong sounds, phobia of big places, phobia of being alone, phobia of being with just one person, phobia of being recognized, phobia of being touched, phobia of throwing up, arachnophobia, phobia of death, etc. I spent all my childhood going to therapy and seeing psychologists but even they couldn't know wtf was happening to me. I had horrible memories but i can control myself now and I'm living a "normal" life i suppose. ╥﹏╥
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I hope you continue to feel content! It doesn't matter if you have a "normal" life or not, if you're happy then you're happy, just as long as you stay healthy and safe! Good job for getting so far! ( sorry that was weird but I think it's really amazing that you've been able to grow so much!)