I fall for my friend that has the same sex as me
well, it's like a romance comedy lmao, we're in the same theater class. she's taller than me and has a boyish haircut. I know her for so long before, it was like I hate her for 5 years. I always thought she's an arrogant and ignorant people, even all my friends always talk bad about her and I believed them. but then we met like destiny. we met at the same audition and worked together at the same theater. I don't really trust her before bcz all I knew was her bad sides. but along the time I friend with her although it was still a lil bit awkward. sometimes I only got an ordinary role in the theater but one day~ I got the princess role!! and the more shocking than that was, she got the prince role!! #cry
I was so panic, that means.. I have to get chemistry with her. our boss even teasing us as a lesbian couple when we are together. we were just silently look at him with "NO" face 8"DD I said "I would throw thing to your face right now, I don't care if you are my boss" it's funny bcz I was so angry that time lmaooo, well I have long hair and feminine vibes and also she's handsome for a girl so yea you can imagine
as princess and prince, we have to be touchy right? we were so awkward before and along the time we're getting closer and more closer. I can see that she's doing her best and also me. it's like I never thought her bad side at all, I enjoyed our time improving and improving. my friends tell me that they kinda blushing when seeing us practice romantic scenes and our boss finally praise us and said: "are you sure you guys are not together?" SJHDJJDJDJD BOSS!! well actually it's quite nice being hugged so many times by her since she's my 'prince' teehee
we were getting closer when our next performance's location is close to my house and she's gonna sleep in my house. we talked soooo many things like our friends and family. she tells me how she was shunned by her friend bcz they have different thoughts that made her friend shared bad rumors about her. that's why so many people joined to hate her. now I get it. I feel so guilty towards her bcz I was one of them and I never tell her so our friendship still lasts. then here I am the more I know about her, the more I fall for her. without realizing I stare at her sleep face for so long since I'm awake first. She's beautiful and handsome at the same time.. omg I'm a creep.. what am I doing
Btw, the last boy I've ever approached was an asshole. I always met assholes with a gentle face, he was always sweet talk to me and then leave with another girl. I'm such a dumb and I don't really trust boys. but then I met this strong girl who always protecting and caring for me. bcz since I'm with her, guys who always bothering me before seem to stop bcz they thought she was my 'bf' since she's really tall and boyish lmaooo. well, I swear I didn't have this special feeling at first, I always thought her as my friend. she's a funny girl which is really cute. I don't know what's come into me, she's getting more attractive in my eyes #help
but when I don't want this feeling to come. suddenly when we're performing. she kissed my hand in front of all audience, and that was out of the script, I'm shocked. I know that her behavior was for her friends that teasing her so much during the performance. they tease us as a married couple which is funny BUT STILL, I didn't know she would do that!! thanks to her behavior I totally couldn't get her out from my head. and yea it really happened..
I can't stop thinking about her, the way I felt was like when I liked a guy. but it wasn't a guy.. I'm questioning my sexuality since that.. It stressed me out. I asked my friend who was also a psychiatrist if I was gay, then my friend said that maybe I'm not gay, bcz I like her for look like a guy so it means I still straight.. lmao.. but I like her too when she dressed as a girl.. and no only that, she's also the strongest girl I ever met, she's very independent, hardworker to continue her own life, and been through so many things. I love her personality.. I never met a guy like that in my whole life but I met her instead.. weird right?
after we were done for the performance. we love to hang out together with other friends too, but sometimes she comes to my house to play and telling so many stories that made us even closer. and suddenly she talks about her boy crush. she's totally straight uwu and she looks so happy about him and I'm happy for her too even though deep inside my heart breaks into pieces. I don't deserve her from the start anyway. And I have no chance since my religious family is against LGBT so much and I don't wanna disappoint them. so from now on, for our friendship and everyone, I would keep this feeling for myself forever. I just want to say thank you for making me this happy even we're not actually together. And I hope this feeling would be to fade away someday. And thank you for reading my story (｡’▽’｡)♡
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I'm the same , but in my case she is cute cuddly girly girl and I've somewhat boyish behavior( don't care for my appearance until too much neccessary). I just let her go 'cause family is against these things and I was totally broke that time. But these feelings remain within even if u don't say or tell to anyone and she is my first love. I just want to remain single forever now. It
I hope u find someone special for u.
It's too much hassle for me though. Lol. I'm lazy u know.
lmaoooo it opposite with me, I'm that girly and cuddly girl and she's super boyish til everyone always thought she's the real boy XD we're at the same position then ( TДT) //virtual hug// I thought the same as you, would I single forever if I didn't find a wonderful person like her in my life since I don't really trust the real boy? I hope that we can get a better person someday even though it's not her YwY and now I still work at home as editor so I could make much money and treat her food someday if we meet again after this pandemic end hehehe UwU
Oh buddy you shouldn't throw your feeling away, it's like a bittersweet story, even though it's unrequited
Cherish 'em and appreciate that you have liked such a wonderful person, you can keep it or confess
Love is not about choosing a side to begin with, love is genuinely love, it can be familial love or love between friend, soulmate, and so on
Have a good day, stay hydrated, and make sure to love yourself more ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶
Oh My. Really it's first time someone represents love in a so sweet way for me.
Unlike my so called parents showed me "What The Love Is."
Thank you for sharing such thoughts
Now, I know I lack positivity the most , even though my blood gp is positive
Thank you Cross(づ￣ ³￣)づ
Well being positive or not depends mostly on mood or the kind of situation you are in so make sure to feel calm first, like listening to chill music or breathe in and out slowly( a way I often use to calm me down)
Again have a nice day <3
I don't know if I've cherished my feeling or not since I feel so useless everytime I thought of that, I hope I could love myself more like you said, thank you my darling that was such sweet words you gave <3 I always love my friends and my family and I will never forget their love for me are real so I'm not gonna disappoint them (´∀｀)