i tried

i attempted. once. i have a box cutter hidden away in one of my drawers and every time things get a little tough i’d take it out and start to draw faint lines across my wrist. i was afraid of the pain so i never cut too deep so it was just strong enough to leave a faint red mark. i told a person i trust and my parents found out. i don’t do it anymore but it rlly sucks, my life just does and idk what i’m doing either... i don’t even know what i’m saying cause my thoughts all over the place...

i just want to stop breathing...