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I tried to slit my wrist with a cutter a few times months ago. It bleed so much and I don't know why but I was so happy seeing blood flowing out of my wrist. I wanted to die so bad, I was diagnosed with depression and couldn't live without antidepressants. My mom loves so much and that's what keeps me alive till today. Ask me anything if you have questions for me.
please don't mind my poor english :c
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Depression is not something you can handle on your own. I'm glad that you still have that will to live. Hold on to that will, no matter what. Hold on to the fact that you're not alone. Always think about your mother, she will never be the same way when she lose you. She will never forgive herself for losing her precious daughter. she will continue on blaming herself for what happened. I've been there... Losing someone in this way is very heartbreaking. Its a memory we will never forget and everyday we blame ourselves for what had happened; continues what if are running in our head, trying to figure out why this happened or we should have done something to prevent this.
I know you're hurting, its hard to live in this cruel world. But I wish you can still move on from that. Share your problems with someone, you're not alone. Think of all the people you'll be leaving behind. Never forget that a lot of people love you. Start loving yourself more. Cheer up!