fucking hell i tell you (rant)

ranking at the top in your batch is not for the weak like idk about you guys but oh my god it is hell like i personally don't know how im even at the top i just do what i usually do and end up there (i am not bragging i literally don't know why and how im there, maybe because the bare minimum for me is too much effort for them but idk help)

plus the fact that your classmates are dependent of you in like every subject and in literally ALMOST everything is both a headache and a blessing. like look, i love leading because it's just fun and my thing. i can't not lead, it's literally my innate trait atp but some people really do be testing your patience ♀

AND the fact that everyone's eyes are on you is just well, weird. i mean i really don't care about what people think of me but it's so weird how they're competing with me when i literally couldn't care less if they surpass me or not. like dude, i'm just trying to maintain my grades here. i aint go no time to play w u