My first bf is kinda, um how do i say it...
He tells me he loves me, but his actions always hurt me. I'm alway the one reaching out to him first, n it was me who proposed him in the first place. After lot's of ups n downs, i broke up w him, but then he called me up after 2 months. He kinda expected that I'd forgive him eventually like I always did, but i had blocked his number. I felt hurt when he ignored me for three days straight, n while i texted him everyday since we're in a long distance relationship. I really cherish communication a lot n if I dun talk w him, I feel disconnected. He didn't realise how paranoid i used to get, but would just brush it off.. now we've been separated but keep in contact. I dun think he considers our relationship broken at all. I also, am quite confused, the time n efforts I've given him was a lot n I dunno if it's right for me to get back w him or to totally end everything w him. I feel guilty when i leave him, but he doesn't even treat me how i want to be treated. In the past few months, I've even started having feelings for my friend, although we're not in any sort of relationship. I really, I'm trying so hard to get away from all this, but my mind is clogged n my heart is twisted so much I can't seem to understand how to deal w any of it. I just wish to make the right decision n for the first time at least, put my own feelings first, rather than overthinking how it'll affect the othr person. I feel like I'm such a bad person after all this. I'd have deleted WhatsApp, had it not been for my institute group chat n run away from all these people to keep myself isolated n in peace.
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You deserve to be loved by someone who cares for you, leave him.
PERIODT.
I'm sure I'm not a rlly good person myself...i dun even wan nobody else, only if he'd treated me bettr... Men just, dun understand us i guess
Let's not generalize gurl... You just need to find a green flag, that's it. And take more time to get to know a person. See what they do, how they behave etc.. And before getting into a relationship and committing to it, state clearly what are your boundaries so that if the other person disagrees, at least you won't waste time and effort. Cmon, take your time and take care
Well, i am a male. Im telling you this because i know theres better men out there. You dont have to want everybody else but you need to accept the fact that he doesnt actually really want you. This looks like textbook playin around when youre bored and honestly i think everyone deserves better than that. Block him and move on, radical acceptance is the way to go Valt. Accept he doesnt appreciate or value you and leave.
Ur def right there... Just sm happened in such a short time... My heart is unable to handle it all together sincerely, i wish to forget everything that's happened... Maybe relationship ain't my thing or maybe i should wait 2-4 yrs to get more mature
I know it may sound contradictory but I wish you wouldn't forget what happened. These situations serve as examples and lessons so that you don't repeat your mistakes and think twice the next time. As of now, if you don't feel ready yet I suggest you to collect yourself, take care of yourself, find a new hobby, make new friendships and enjoy more life You don't need to hurry to another relationship. Think about yourself first ;) then when you feel ready and more mature, you may try... Wishing you all the best in this world and good luck
Thank u bestieee
Your ex sounds horrible! Good for you that you left him. One way communication isn't healthy as it is mentally draining for the one making all the efforts. Him not trying to value you and your efforts are straight up red flags. As for mental peace, try talking to close family member or friend. I write down my feeling or give myself a long talk. Its helps me, seek the ways which makes you feel mentally healthy ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
Yuhh i used to talk w myself n pen down my thoughts before, ig i should start doing that again
How tf i keep making worse mistakessss
I really need to see a therapist
Please do :)
That def makes me seem insane I'm sorry, i swear I'm not so petty irl
Sorry I'm just venting... In case y'all read this, u might as well ignore
Sometimes, i really wanna kms
My mental health is so fcked up at this point