i lost

was playing literally 3 days ago and im f2p with kinda lazy and laggy laptop experiance. i got furina and wanted to get her a good weapon right now shes using the three star sword harbinger of dawn. i feel bad for her so i wanted to get her main weapon ut i didnt get it in timme and i was only on like 20 pity
so i save up and i see that mistsplitter reforged was gonna be in 4.3 so i was excited. i wished and stuff and of course i used the trick where the blesssing thing (where you choose a weapon path and if you dont get it in the first 2 five stars its guranteed). the trick was to choose the opposite weapon of the one you wanted cause usually you get the other weapon you dont want. and ive used this before. i chose the verdict so i would get the mistsplitter. i grinded on the new events and spent. and then... on 63 pity i saw i got a five star gold (one pulls).. and ... i got... the verdict?? all my wishes wasted?? i even spent my arlecchino funds.(not that much). but i was so flabbergasted, this has never happened before. i mean i won the 50/50 but why? why now? like why NOW? i still havent recovered i dont know what to do. i havent touched the game since.