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I cant wait for school to close so i can leave, im done. its over. tell me im over-reacting but im at my limit. BUT THAT ISNT THE THING. Lately i have been tryna cut ties with the people who piss me off or simply seem irrelevant to me. I cut ties of with this girl lets call her Sugar. so Sugar became friends with me 3 months after i moved to this school, it was all well, until our other friend who brought us 4 together left. so now we 3. So me and Sugar seemed to have a good relationship the only problem is she was homophobic and transphobic but she would deny it even though she would say ew at everything that was gay related and shit, let me clarify she is muslim, but my other friend, lets call her Cake, is also muslim and she genuinely is intrigued by these things. and asks me things abt them sometimes and says sorry whenever she feels like she said sum wrong (she never does tbh). Same w the friend who left. But this is only 0.000000012356% of the problemo.

Sugar never listens to me. Lowkey she annoys me whenvr she judges ppl and tell me she would never judge and she is a good muslim or whtv. She annoys me when she disregards the fact i have mental health issues and go to therapy more and more now. There was a time where i told her i could not do a specific community service cause i have plans and i thought she would get the hint, so she kept ignoring my request to shift, and when i told her "FOR FUCKS SAKE I HAVE THERAPY" in front of the whole group basically exposing my mental issues, she said "Oh my bad... damn." that set me off. so i told her not "bye" and 2 hours later she texts me "KIINNNNNN, just tell ur dad to shift to sunday lol." I was livid, my dad hates me shifiting my therapy he the one who made me go and i only agreed for him. and my therapist dont work on sunday. So when she said that it ticked me off, and made me realise she never listens and may never, cause this has happend SEVERAL times and it pisses me off but i always smile and say "oh ok. thats ok ill try" or "It was my fault. sorry." I told her "FOR FUCKS SAKE SUGAR, I HAVE FUCKING THERAPY FUCK. you know what, just fucking leave me alone i dont think i want to talk to u or see u again. Bye" she said "Now, whats my fault?" and i ignored it, last night i blocked her. I genuinly cannot.

The past 2 days of school has just been Cake (other friend) tryna get us back tgether. and I look at her coldly that i can see her almost cry and i thought ill feel bad, but its pissing me off even more. and Cake is making me seem like a criminal for not accepting a simple "Sorry". So when i have feelings im the monster. Tbh I have started ignoring ppl for the sake of my mental health cause I even cut ties with my family apart from my brother (les call him Kam), Me and Kam are legit the only almost sane 2 ppl in this house. I decided that i never want to talk abt my dad after something that happened (maybe ill talk bout it ltr) and I feel like im being excessive but my therapist told me I may have never seen him as a dad in the first place, and the rest of my family need to give me space. I dont know my life is kind of a tiny mess in the corner rn.

whtv.