What's something messed up from your childhood that you didn't realize was messed up till later

I use to think it's normal that every birthday of mine when blowing canddles instead of wishing for toys family or whatever, i'll wish that i don't have a bad grades , and i dont let myself have nice things cuz i dont think i deserve it, i dont complain even if i dont like something cus i think i don't have the right to do so   1 reply