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22 Aug 2023
Experience to that 'deeply in love' thing question I did ^^
I'm still a very close friend with her till this day and we still do have a countdown (dunno why but we're both set on to hit 1000+) - we're in our 800+ days now.
It wasn't really a 'deeply in love' since it wasn't that deep and we were too busy with university that's why we had a mutual break up. I 100% do not want to get back with her because if we break up again I'm afraid we'd never talk again. Additionally, I am in a commited relationship.
Currently, she started dating this average guy last month and I'm literally just waiting for them to break up. Why? Because I am in a situation where your close friend sometimes neglects you and pays more attention to her new boyfriend because you know? They're in that new relationship phase we've all been in. I'm sure you can relate to being treated like this before since it's common with new couples. I do get that there's someone new now but bro I've been here since years like calm down buckaroo. + and It's just that I am very possessive with close friends, that's all.
I looked on everything on this guy and it's giving 'how does a 10/10 fall for a 3/10' goddamn - Who am I to say this stuff? Absolutely no one, but It's obvious that she can do better. But it is what it is.
And unfortunately I do have massive red flags but I respect her so I don't really do anything but wait while drinking some boba :>
Edit (July 2024) : They broke up a few months ago. He was indeed a piece of shit, a cunt. We're talking to eachother again, we talk a lot. I'm happy. My wife is back to me. /Lyr
And we're at 1300+ days on the countdown.
Edit Feb 2025.
It was going pretty well. But it went downhill when 2025 started. I've been distancing myself because i started to feel like I'm asking too much sometimes and it's so frustrating that I have to point out everything that she did wrong to me in comparison to me just knowing when I did something wrong and then we have a long talk about it - most of the time she's sending excuses, I haven't been getting the apologies I need. Most of the time I feel lonely with her. She confessed that she likes me again romantically but I JUST can't love her the way she loves me at the moment. I just need reassurance but I never get it from her. It's been a rough start of the year. We both know our relationship is toxic.
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