my bestfriend fell in love w/ me

I have a bestfriend, he’s a guy and im a girl, and he has a girlfriend. We’ve been friends since the first day we met in school. Maybe we clicked together because he’s kind of gay (but he said he’s not) or like a feminine guy. I felt comfortable with him. And I knew my limitations tho. One day, he and his girlfriend fought. They always fought a lot and it’s my friend’s fault lol. He’s a major red flag (found it too late) and I kind of want to avoid him because that’s not the energy I want in my life. And he was venting on me, all of his problems and drama, and all I did was to advice him. But sometimes I get too tired to listen to all his shits because the problem they are facing was all his fault lol and I don’t tolerate it. So in order to avoid listening to repetitive bullshits of his, I just talked about random things. And then, he and his girl broke up then after three days, he confessed to me that he fell in love with me. It made me feel so disgusted and guilty at the same time even tho I knew to myself that I didn’t do anything wrong. It made me so disgusted that he confessed to me three days after they broke up and he even said that he fell in love with me way long ago. It’s just so gross for me. I don’t want to associate with people like that. But since I am a fucking people pleaser, I just shook it off and just tell him in a very nice way that I only see him as a friend. Like bffr, if he does that to his girlfriend, he may do that to me too. lol. no fucking way. And we still continue as friends, even tho i dont want it anymore but I have no choice because he’s my classmate in class. But I will avoid him slowly. It makes me feel bad to do that but I just want some peace and he’s fucking bad for my mental health. And even his girlfriend spreads rumors about me like she was so jealous of me even before. How could she be jealous when her boyfriend is my groupmate to some of our group projects. I have no choice but to talk to him and be with him because we had some work to do. They are toxic as fuck. It makes me feel sick. And I honestly regret it so much that I associate my life with him. And what makes it worse is that I like my bestfriend’s friend and I just wanna cry (not for real) that his friend already knew that my best friend like me. Like bffr, he knows the bro code. That fucking shit ruined my life and my love life (just kidding).