Secret Confessions
I have social anxiety and it makes me really sad and annoyed when I tell my friends that I'm scared to join a club and ask them to join with me or to ask a teacher for help and they just answer with 'why are you so scared?' Or ' you need to be more outgoing' or when people call me 'anti-social'. They dont have any idea of the struggle it takes to just do certain things and I understand that maybe they dont want to help me with certain things but they should at least be understanding about it. Dont get me wrong, I'm trying to expose to social activities more in order to help but it doesn't help when people just think that it's something easy to cure.
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I know the feeling too. Once I was in a freshman camp. I got a dorm room with badroom outside...Going out to pee was ok, because it was separated. But the fucking bath cabins were not.xD I remember standing in my room, looking at my legs and felt totally puzzled. I heard noises outside so I figured extroverts were there like zombies who were hungry for brain... They were hungry for alcohol tho...So I just couldn't move as soon as I heard them and their conversation and all, I just froze. My mind started to overthinking everything, the "what if" questions just came like a fast train. An then I realized I standed there for two hours long.xD Half hour later I've gone out because I had to pee from the stress.xD But I was calmer because they were wasted from the alcohol.
Long story in short, aproaching ppl and experiencing/ entering new groups and type of ppl can be scary. I was too afraid of their opinion, and didn't focus on mysels. I recommend you to join a club which has a same interest as you so you can easily start a conversation then. Approaching too different people was not lucky for me. They just couldn't understand me.
Same bro, I know what your going through, my anxiety got so bad that I didn't even join any clubs because I wanted to avoid everything.(〜￣△￣)〜