I tried to jump in front of a moving vehicle once

I just had a fight with my parents and tried to calm down by walking outside, I was feeling dazed but it was quite a busy day since many vehicles were roaming the streets. While I was walking I felt a strong breeze behind me so I looked and saw a truck speeding down the road. I stared blankly at it and said to myself, I swear to god I remember these words so clearly "What would happen if I jumped in front of this truck now? I feel like that would be nice"

I was a few inches from the actual road and in my head, I imagined how my body would look like after the suicide. Would it be torn to pieces, or will my parts scatter on the asphalt? Before I knew it, I was already at the edge of the road and then suddenly the truck honks the horn and startled me. After being heavily startled by the noise I took some steps back from the road and started to breathe heavy.

I was about to...take my own life away but it didn't happen.
Though the thought of actually killing myself still crosses my mind often times