No but i have those thoughts everyday

I am scared of pain and the afterlife and whether nothing exists,if I go to hell, or purgatory or something. I don't want to die at a bad moment or at my own hands. I don't want my pathetic life to have been for nothing I want to find something that makes life worth living and I want you guys to do that also <3 don't kill yourselves or else I'll be really sad. Many times you'll think no one will care if you die but that's not true. If you need someone to talk to text me on @cherryalmonds on Instagram :)