Question for an S and an M

I really need to understand please like
With no subjection please wanna just understand
And like without the thing of feels gd I knw it turns u on but
If there is an S here answer tha for me like why wd u go and make a hard time for someone doesn'tu feel pity fr him?? Like making him bare a hard feeling "pain" ?
And if there s M here just answer tha
Why wd u bare it?isn't it better to have good care ?
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PS: lol don't let tha influence ur answer but I go so much in watching ones suffering and then comfort them with a warm hug in the end
This makes me turned on and mmm so great feelings dunno how t describe it
And f crs like if the person doesn't want f crs I won't
IM A VIRGIN so I still can't be sure of anything loll