First? Wow this takes me back

I knew anime existed but I didn't know yaoi was a thing when I was younger. I found it from porn sites originally and would constantly watch it, on the hunt to find more. I was amazed by it and since during my childhood I had severe depression, yaoi/bl was my light in the dark, it's weird and doesn't make sense I know. I do have to say the first one I found was a scene was i'm pretty from Junjou Romantica and i just needed more so I just kept looking till I found out about yaoi. Till this day I love BL/Yoai, I get it's not realistic but I feel happier and more comfortable reading/watching men be in love.