Scared of falling in love again

Me and my (first) boyfriend broke up a few weeks ago, like for real just becoming friends, no benefits and that shit anymore because we had that for like 2 months. But now i feel like im scared to ever fall in love again, because eventhough i love him so much and i liked our relationship but in the last months it really hurted me, us both. I honestly dont know what to do now. I really mis being in love and falling in love yk those nervous moments when talking to some one the butterflies but im scared to get hurt again and that i wont ever be able to feel that again or that i cant love some one as much as they love me, because i still love him alot and i think i always will. I dont even know if i should get over him or try getting him back, i just dont know anymore. I know i deserve something better, we both do. Im just so scared because i dont know what the futher will hold yk

Sometimes i wish i just never fell in love at all eventhough it gave me alot of nice moments