is anyone like this?

TW: self harm
do some of y'all got any life plans I'm in 10th grade and I'm worried cause I don't have any I don't have hobbies talents or anything special all I know is simp and thirst over fictional characters shit there's nothing idk I'm a fucking dumb bitch all I did this year is cheat and didn't learn shit but that's my fault but what do I do I even forget it my name sometimes in tests or in public I would completely write a different name that's not even my name cause i really thought my life was gonna end when I was 12 cause I was gonna kill myself but failed multiple times it's just embarrassing