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You’re suicidal   reply

You're in desperate need of help. That's what it is.   reply

If you like to harm yourself, it isn't any form of S&M, but earlier suicidal thoughts. If you do not have any kind of thoughts like that and just feel 'pleasure' from it, I would suggest finding a partner that is experienced in S&M or BDSM. There are things that can go wrong.   reply

Uh... no.   reply

It’s not really sexual so it’s neither S or M. It’s a maladaptive or dysfunctional method to self manage extreme emotions like anxiety or negative thoughts (suicide etc). You were probably making a joke though lol. Here we all get serious   1 reply

you just answered your own question? if sadists like to inflict harm on others then obviously inflicting harm on yourself doesnt count   reply