Im really tired of virgin uke

I dont dislike the uke, but I dislike those tropes cause it describes me (being virgin) and what is the reason for the seme to be so experienced or being a playboy? especially that they have so many experienced with girls. After many times reading this kind of manga, I feel like Im going to die without having a relationship because:

1.) Im a virgin
2.) There are no straight boys in my country who will change their preference for a gay guy

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Im really pathetic