Im confused abt my sexuality

so I’ve been calling myself a lesbian for about 1 year. But a lot of people kept on asking if I was actually liking girls or just faking it.
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I first started liking girls when I kissed one at 8 (pretty young) then as time went on I noticed how I started to like their touch and my heart always would skip a beat when they started physically touching me. Once I finally understood what lesbian was and the LBGTQ+ community I became lesbian officially I guess. But as more and more people started to ask about it I really thought about and now I’m confused. Well let’s start or with “ Do I like men?” No, no I don’t. But when ever I see like anime men or celebrities my minds like “OO NICE” but the thought of them simply breathing or sharing a bed with me makes me uncomfortable and kinda grossed out. Seconded when I think about girls, and them doing the nasty I don’t get the vagina throb thing (I don’t at all feel it when I think about girl and boy doing the nasty) but someone I know said I’m supposed to fell it?? It does get me in the mood tho. So then what do I like about women? Well there gentle, PRETTY! When ever I think about them I always fell so fresh and clean. I squeal when one of them hold my hand and i just stop breathing when they physically touch me. I like to think about soft nice lips smooth body and a gentle voice with long hair. I would actually date a girl then to have to look a mans way. But every time I see these celebrity people or anime dudes my mind just starts asking me “HEY WANT TO THINK ABOU THEN TOUCHING YOU??” No no I don’t. It’s sounds gross. Can someone give me a Little advice?