I am so broke, am depressed
I moved out to live on my own last year October from my moms. Figured I could get my life on track faster that way. I wanna be a freelancer rather than employed. I have been getting by somehow. Can't believe it's been 9 months since I moved out. My apartment is a one bedroom with kitchen and all. It's beautiful and very spacious with high ceilings. The rent is very affordable. But I am incredibly broke. I thought I had gotten some job but the person paused it for a while. I am waiting on another one hoping it will arrive on time to pay my rent.
I went to bed last night depressed and I woke up feeling even worse this morning. I am tired of being an adult. I am tired of being broke. Yesterday I went clothes shopping and bought the cheapest T-shirts and pants I have ever bought. I work from home so I never really have to bother with formal clothing though I have a bunch of them. I was looking for clothes I wear at home. They are quite cute though. My closet is full but I think buying very cheap clothes hit me hard.
I want to make money. I am tired of not having any. Worse yet, life is slowly becoming a chore. Rent is due in two weeks and I don't have a cent on me. I just panicked typing that out. (Sorry for the rant. This site might be the only thing of color in my grey life)
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Time to brush up the CV and start applying man. It's either freelancing and being broke or getting employed by a company. It fucking sucks. Recruitment was one of the most awful and stressful periods of my life, and I can't imagine how financial instability is affecting yours. But it's worth it. Do your time at a company, build skills, then quit after saving up some money to do the bcfreelancing you love. Start a company. All this can be done with the training and experience companies pay you to get.