Ah sh*t I just remembered something I shouldn't be remembering

I remembered this morning about a post on tiktok about this anime where there was this scene with a fat guy f*cking a guy and when he was about to f*ck him he just straight up put it in and then blood spilled on the guy's "Anus" or should I say his "Anus" ripped and then the fat guy continued f*cking him , while he was being f*cked he sceamed in pain (it was not even a sexy moan IT WAS A TORCHER MOAN) and then after being f*cked by the guy he died while showing the blood dripping-

... I remember I couldn't read BL for awhile because of that clip