When the first time you knew that you like the same sex..? or first love..?

Mine is in 4th grade, I fall in love with my best friend by the middle of the year. We were so close even before so I got to sit on her lap a lot and we would hug always so that was nice. And THEN, by the end of the year she said that if I won't get serious about our project for school, she'll kiss me. And I thought that she was joking, but she wasn't. So she kissed me and I was like, wait for real? And then she told me that she liked me, and we started "dating" for almost a year. Then she broke up with me cuz I wasn't giving her enough attention (when she was hanging with kids who harmed me) so I was kinda heart broken for half a year lol and now I'm too scared to go out when ppl ask me :)

damn i remember when she asked me to sit with her and then suddenly i've been running late to my class bc she wanted me to walk her to her class and i was all for it. and then once she kissed me on the cheek and she's an open person so a part of me felt like it was a platonic thing but i was so giddy/embarrassed (and late to class lol) regardless. even when i told myself not to like her too much i still did without knowing so i was sad when she said to me casually one day that she liked someone else. i guess it's good now that i can think back at it and smile!

that sounds so adorable!! tbh for me, i never knew i was pan/not het until high school. i was having an identity crisis and started thinking about how i feel about romance and stuff and did a lot of google searching and i felt that the term pan fit me well so i stuck with it. my first real crush who happened to be a girl as well came about 2 years later?? she was bi so i could've tried but i'm shy and inexperienced and she liked some guy so it was something i kept to myself. i feel like when im around a crush my heart races and i suddenly become mute sorta like a robot