why are you still here?

the title might seem rude, sorry about that ( ´△｀)
but i keep finding comments say "im leaving mangago to get a life now, wish me luck" and all but reading all those made me remember why i still here when i almost left a year ago. and basically, i have nothing else to do!!! ;0;
2017, i was a yaoi addict, since i found all the good animes then old and new, i was back to being bored again, then yea
*cue the "how i found yaoi" explanation* -- yea. 2018, i started getting bored, all the sex scenes that spiced everything up to the shounen AI's that made your heart flutter with fluff, just got boring, and decided to leave it. but quickly got scared that those self deprecating thoughts would appear as i always drift off into my mind when i'm quiet. so i quickly come here just to "occupy" myself. realizing i'm just an empty body who's soul was wasted, just to engulf myself in fantasy stories to feel fake emotion and especially joy.

ANY WHO!! enough of deep dark stuff :)) im doing better now, im actually trying to do outside activities like color guard since i dont wanna put my natural talent for sports to waste, and try to start a webtoon that i have so much hope for, but im not getting the right "push" to publish it ya know? im still here reading reading yaoi and non yaoi things, watching anime, finally catching up of one piece, corazoe san is flipping got killed by his older brother and made me literally cry XD.

enough about me now, whats your story, or even your reason for still being here when you know your just filling in an empty hole somewhere in your heart, or maybe you just got here and like what you seeing? (｡•ᴗ-)✧