I will say crazy..

mainly because through out my life I have jumped off the roof of my two story house only to have my neighbor catch me both times, my mother's favorite saying was "I brought you into this world and I can take you out " one time when she said that I begged her to kill me while holding a razor knife to my neck I was 9 at the time, one of my mom's friends told me he didn't like me and put a gun to my head but when he pulled the trigger it jammed all I did was laugh.. I have tried to kill myself so many times I have lost count.. Oh, and I had an old elementary teacher tell me that she was surprised I am still alive since she didn't see me living past 10 I am 31 now