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I don’t think I have eating disorders but I have always been obsessed with my weight and how I look in the mirror. On some days, I look normal to myself, but on most of the days I look big that I’d force myself to starve. I’m 160cm tall, I used to weigh around 53kg, and my goal used to be 45kg. But when I’ve reached that goal, it didn’t feel great. So I continued starving myself, keeping myself busy with assignments and games, I’m now 44kg. 44 should be good right? But I don’t feel a thing when I look at myself in the mirror. People tell me I’m already skinny, but to me I just look big. It has now become a habit for me to binge eat one day, then starve myself for a week+. On days I binge eat, some of the food would usually come right back out.
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That sounds like body dysmorphic disorder , im not one to diagnose but it does seem like you have dysmorphia concerning your body.
It is a psychological condition that often results in the culmination of eating disorders and those extreme fluctuations in your eating routine are pathway to eating disorders because you’re focusing on weight not health
The problem isn’t your weight but the way you’re perceiving and it’ll take a lot of time to mould it and to breakthrough
You should , if possible , schedule an appointment with a therapist .
Also , you’re asking yourself whether 44kg is good or not . It’s not . Why ? Cause the method you used (i.e. starvation )to get there was harmful for your wonderful body .
if you continue striving yourself and eating only one meal in an entire day your digestive tract will suffer so much , liver problems too may occur. Your body is only as beautiful as it is taken care of .
I’m sorry if these words are harsh but please sit yourself down , grab a pen , jot down a daily routine that entails of a 3 meal per day schedule in fact you should take it upto 3-5 meals but let’s start at 3 right now and make sure to follow it consistently until it becomes habitual.
Drink LOTS of juices .
I have no other advice but I’m pretty sure you’ll feel like
Fuck this shit I’m out A whole lotta times but someone know when that happens in fact if it’s comfortable you could even let me know ; I’m not lying I’ll remind you to eat when it gets tough with all conviction
Idk this is prolly weird for you I wrote a whole novel but
Your body isn’t flawed rn, never was rather your perception . Please work on being good to your body
DONT SKIP YOUR MEALS TODAY OR ISTG YOULL GET YEETED FROM PLANET EARTH
i did not expect to receive this kind of a heartwarming reply when i decided to share this ╥﹏╥ ngl you kind of made me cry but in a good way. i've never really had people worry over me so to have someone, a stranger on top of that to be this concerned over my well-being makes me emotional. thank you so much for spending some of your time to write a whole essay for me. i really appreciate this, i'll treasure this forever. i'll try doing what you suggested! it'll probably be hard but i'll try for you and for myself! <33 ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH. (cant believe i'm crying again while typing out this reply sadksjks).
p.s I hope you'll only ever experience good things in your life!! Take care and stay safe wherever you are, dear stranger.