Which BL character do you envy?

I was reading one of my fav BL manga and I couldn't stop thinking "Man, I wish I could be like *that character* He's so *insert all nice qualities*

I'm a girl, and before people triggers about it, It's not about wanting to be a dude so I can get a hot seme. For example, my fav character is Misumi from Yoidore Koi wo sezu. He's so beautiful, has an expertise (master of sake) and (even though he's scared to fall in love) omg he's sexy and confident AF, he knows exactly how to seduce his partner. I wish I could have a little of that cool personality.

I want to know then BL characters you would like to be :)