who the fuck am I

I think I might be a pansexual cuz I believe I could like someone due to their qualities and I do think gender is only one factor of those qualities. But then I feel like I am just an ally and not a pansexual. confusion****** probably cause I have nvr had the chance to confirm my identity thru practical experience and that kinda scares me not because I might be a pansexual but because I would probably get more confused in the long run. I want to confirm it but I dun think I can actually do it because I belive these things naturally come to you like a flick of a moment, also because I dunno where to start.