crazy ass mother.

my mother is a product what ppl like to call ‘the abused become the abuser’ i don’t like saying that because i don’t wanna be like her. she’s very controlling and likes to gaslight me. her favorite line is “i’m the bad guy right? you have everything, why are you crying like a baby? you aren’t privileged enough to be crying like that” my grandmother used to hit her and pull her hair a lot. so she doesn’t get physical with me, but she does say sum really shitty stuff that messes with my mental health. this one time when i was 12 she made me delete musically[ because of her reasons]. than while i was having a mental break down, she took a video of me, posted it on my snap, insta, musically and her facebook and captioned it “ almost a teenager and crying like this, what a perfect little daughter i have” you can hear her laughing in the back of the video. while i’m shaking and crying telling her i can’t breathe, and i need a hug. :/ after that i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and depression.