I want

I want to experience it.... but my friends always be the first one who tell my crush that I like him so I ended up being so embarrassed...hayyyyyy

Maybe I also have no confidence that I just want to watch him afar and be contended and even it hurts to see him with other girls but I don't have the right because I am not his girlfriend and he doesn't even know my name...
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