LET OUT YOUR ANGER

[trigger warnings maybe??? strong language, death, abuse]

Fuck you, you fucking bitch. I wish to never see you again and I hope you one day disappear, never to return. Fuck. You. I genuinely cared for you, did my best to open up and made efforts for you because I actually really did l o v e y o u. And what did you give me in return? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. You repeatedly lied to my face and always denied it!! What was I supposed to do in the end? You've mentally broken me. When I ended things with you, it was because you essentially told me you never wanted me... SO WHY THE FUCK DID YOU EVER AGREE TO ME?! And as fucking toxic our relationship was, I didn't even want to end that. I hate you for making feel this way. I hate that you're so fucking gorgeous. I hate that you're already dating someone else so fast. You get to move on and I'm stuck in this world of glass because I don't want it to shatter around me like it did when I fell in love with you. For all the days you made me wait, anxious, and worried,,, I hope you suffer more exponentially. This might be wrong of me but I want you to die. I want everyone close to you to suffer. I want you to suffer infinity times more than I did/am right now. And I want to erase my brain. I can't believe I wasted my life on you. If I had the ability to go back and choose whether or not we'd date again, hands down it'd be the biggest fucking no ever to exist.

To you who calls yourself my mother. You have no idea how long ago I have mentally separated myself from this 'family', just waiting until i could leave. you say you love me? that i'm your child? well i'm not the way you act. the other day you said that the 'mess' we make doesn't show that we love you. well guess what? UNDERMINING MY EFFORTS TO EASE YOUR LIFE DOESN'T SHOW YOU LOVE ME EITHER. AND CONSTANTLY COMPARING ME BUT THEN SAYING "it's not about what they do" DOESN'T EXACTLY HELP. You have no idea the amount of work I put in at the place where i live with you guys and at school only to come home and have to clean because you were watching your hour long episode show instead of supervising your children making messes. AND TO GET YELLED AT CONSTANTLY WHEN IT ISN'T MY FAULT? Also i'm sorry i'm trying to raise your children DECENTLY because you're SPOILING THE LITTLE BRATS. And you don't even realize it. I hope that bites you back in the ass greatly. And i'm oh so grateful you never took my side when i needed you most. yeah, thanks so much for that.

to the stupid dumb dipshit that is married to the woman who birthed me. stop calling yourself my dad. please. toxic, abusive, hypocritical men have no place in my life. you were never my father the minute you degraded me over something trivial. you have continued to berate me over the years i have been forced to co-exist with you and have even beat me. i will never forget you almost literally killed me and my brother FOR BEING KIDS. you and your hypocritical ass with your "no negative speaking" can get the fuck out of here and off a cliff. see if i give a fuck. i won't, that much i can assure you. i cannot count the numerous times i have forgiven you when you have hurt me and then apologized saying you would never do it again, only to do it again. i can't believe how naive i was then. i hate how i have to call you my father. i can't wait until i leave the motherfucking place.

to the stupid whore of a bitch that used me to get my best friend, i hope you rot. i can't believe i was ever concerned for you. i know i will never be again tho. not upset you tool my friend but extremely pissed you used me. they way you suddenly never talked to me again after my birthday. i will never fucking put up with you again and i will make that clear. oh i wish i could seduce him just to break your heart but i don't like him like that and never will again. ngl i wish you would die too bc you messed with my brain so

and please people, please stop bothering me when i'm listening to music or i'm just standing by myself. i'm not lonely, i just love non crowded areas and being far away from groups.

i apologize if this offends anyone but i've literally been holding most of these feelings for YEARS so TYSM OP FOR LETTING ME BE ABLE TO GET THIS OFF MY CHESTTTT!! I feel really refreshed and i might come back here if i need to again in the future

again, many many many thanks from me op, i feel really good rn