Language learning hell

As a Singaporean, I’ve learnt chinese and english side by side for my entire life since the government wants us to be bilingual by learning english and our mother tongue. It’s hard as balls and I honestly don’t recommend it if you don’t have any obligation to learn it AHHAHAH there are just too many phrases and ways you can write sentences and idioms so my composition writing skills are literally bullshit ;-; imagine japanese but only with kanji and thats chinese T.T When i’m 16 i can use the chinese language to appeal to universities i have to work harder（/TДT)/ I took Japanese as a Third Language subject being the goddamn weeb i am and it’s pretty fucking hard as well SO MANY SENTENCE STRUCTURES WTH MAN (╯°Д °)╯╧╧ but learning kanji is easier for me because they are just chinese characters with slight modification so i’m okay there i guess :D and i can use japanese to replace any of my weaker subjects in school so no complaints there (๑•ㅂ•)و✧ but i think for someone with no chinese background it may be a little harder to learn this language but with lots of hard work you can do this :D)) For korean i took 4 lessons on duo lingo and gave up so not much to say there (⊙…⊙ ) i should take it up again when i’m free