Update: Shooting Shot
Hi everyone!
This is not the update I wanted to make, but here it is.
When I settled on Thursday, I did not realized it would be Valentine's Day.
However, I said fuck it.
I decided to overlook step one (smiling and keeping eye contact) and just go ahead and tell homeboy I wanted to exchange info.
So, I dressed up, wore makeup that turned out AMAZING.
My makeup skill is just...there.
I do a mean eye-makeup, but that's.
Still, today, I looked slim as fuck, my makeup looked great, my bun looked cute as fuck.
I smelled like heaven.
I LOOKED AMAZING!
I was all ready.
I even met this girl at the math lab at my school (where you get help with math hw), and she showed me a text her bf sent her, it was cute as fuck (asking her to be his Valentine's. They've been dating for a year now. Why am I still single?), and I told her about my plans to shoot my shot! She even helped me out, y'all. We were going over how to do it, what to say, and all that!
I was getting hyped!
When the time that I usually saw him came, I sprayed some perfume on to make sure I still smelled like a flower field and fled the lab.
Whelp!
It came.....and passed....and I did not see him.
LET ME CRY!!!
I'M SO FUCKING OVER THIS SHIT!
I'M OVER LOVE!
MOTHER NATURE HATES ME!
Okay, now that's over. Let me ask y'all, what should I do?
Should I still attempt?
Let's say, tmrw, Friday, if I see him on campus, should I still shoot my shot (looking less gorgeous), or should I take this as a sign that home-boy took the day from school to spend it with his GF and I have no chance?
IDK. I do not want to give up, but....It's not like I have a 'crush' on him.
I just think he is very attractive and would love to get to know him.
I'm attracted, but that's all.
I can wait to be attracted to another guy.
Thoughts?
Be truthful with me.
Don't tell me to do things you wouldn't do.
I feel like it is not in my cards to ever date or fall in love.
HUGE sigh.
I'm over it.
Another V-day single.
Let me go do m hws.