shitty experience

at the start of quarantine, i was so goddamn happy because who wouldn't? i mean no schools?? heck yeah but after sometime i started to get bored and felt the need to do something significant, something productive.

i followed a framework in order to be productive, the first week it was all cool however at some point probably 2-3 week after that, i began to square one where i would laze around and felt the need to do something but what's different this time is that, i felt worse because i failed to do something and it came to this!

a new norm was made, school starts once again! the people or specifically the artists who aspires have became jaw dropping amazing in the aspect of digital art and me here, only complains my incompetency why I'm not good enough despite fully knowing that they haven't became that good overnight. i knew that on quarantine they spent their time on improving their art also did i mention that they're youngins? 14-16 yrs old while i am around that age myself, I don't have the same devotion as theirs. (don't kick me out pls i love yaoi)

most of the time also in quarantine, i became more into breakcore and emo stuffs because i was insecure and shit like that so yeah that's it.