Random confession

When I read a bunch o fcked up shts in mrm, nhentai, weird fanfics et al , l sometimes stop while scrolling and think 'man.... how fucked up am i? Why am i reading this again? Whats wrong with me? Why am i not bothered by this sht?" Then 2 secs later I'll be like "oh well" then go scrolling down again forgetting those concerning questions of mine even existed in the first place.