Hi! I really just want to let this out... I'm feel really lonely, even though there are a lots of people here in our house I still feel so lonely...I want to have friends so badly but I think that no would ever like me, that I am just a horrible person, that I would mess everything up I do anything, I cant make eye contact to people...I cant even remember the faces of my cousins now lmao and they are also staying at our for five days, we took a family picture and when I looked at the photo I feel like puking...I feel so sick, I think that I dont deserve anything...I'm just an ugly loner fuck, that thought of me having a bf or me just liking someone makes me feel so sick like "how dare I have a crush on him?? Im so fuvking ugly!" I dont know what to do anymore!! I am also failing my class....I cant do anything fuvking right! Im fucking attention whore! But not even I single peros that I know knows how I feel....I dont want to die...I keep having suicidal thoughts but I know I dont want to die...at least for now...but that shit is really tempting haha...but I want a fucking relife...I dont care if I remember the past or not I jusy want to get better Its all my faulth everything is my fault....why am I like this????? I am so sick mentally and physically- I just want to fucking cry! But I cant........lol now I kinda feel better shit why do this depressing shit happens when Im with a lot of people lmao....
you aren't the only one who feels loneliness... due to the virus we are all forced to be alone... may that's why you felt like this... I never ever wrote some long answers in any sections.. but I can't ignore you... if you feel like crying just let it out it is not a bad thing.. you don't want to make those people around you worry about you that'...... reply
I want to tell you things will get better but tbh I don't know if they will, what I do know is that we're on a floating rock in space and that things will change whether we like it or not lol so for now why not focus on yourself do things and wear things that make you feel good about yourself become someone who isn't ashamed of liking someone why n...... reply
*incoming very long answer/if you dont want to read all of this or think it's too much, i'll make a simplified version in the replies under this*
i cannot stress this enough, its 100% okay to not know what to do at the moment, its perfectly fine to struggle in school if you're not mentally there and stable enough to process that information, and...... 2 reply
